tjfeagin

"The state is an organization with an effective legal monopoly on the use of force in a particular geographic area." - Max Weber I'm almost finished with my first semester of school.  All classes are going well, with the possible exception of PCUR.  I just can't find it in myself to care for the class.  Even skipped a test.  But all-in-all, school is going well.  I'm as happy as could be expected. I still have my occasional memories and flashbacks, though writing them down has helped get a lot out of my system.  They're not as severe or as often as they were a year or two ago.  The drinking, though, remains. Laelo's one year old today.  Pi

For the first time in my life, I'm seeing North Carolina as my home.  This is where I'm going to lay my roots.  Not going back to Texas for anything more than a vacation. I'm home.

God, I sure do love her.  We have our fights, which really do suck, but I really love her.  I love her like I've never loved a woman before. Our fights seriously do suck...they make me just want to go grab a bottle of JB and kill it. The last time I killed a bottle of JB at one time, I also killed 17 Bud Lights.  And I got a DWI and went to jail - when I was a cop.  So I'm trying not to repeat that. She gets to the core of me...knows how to break me...knows how to make me whole...knows how to make me more than whole.  I really hate being this vulnerable.  I hate how much I put into our relationship, because I'm scared that it'll end up the